neglected but not finished

not updated for so long, but still having lots of thoughts.
need to be more disciplined to type or write them down.

mainly thoughts of why people die without knowing why. thoughts of death.
things are uncertain, today's newpaper front page is about the girl who fell to her death because she tried to run away from her home

why do people like to take things into their own hands? when its not?

who can decide when they die? some commit suicide, some attempt and not all suceed. thats because God didn't allow them to die even when they tried.
God is real even if people don't want to believe
God loves even when people don't accept

its been more than 100 days after my uncle's passing away.

let me share this story now.

a couple has 2 sons. 1 is adopted and 1 is their only son.
their only son was taught well and loved his parents very much.
he was very obedient and understood his parents intentions for him.
the communication between them was perfect
the adopted son was not so good
he always felt he was not their own, so they will prefer their own son, that they will be partial
he had doubts of their love
so he lived life the way he wanted
he got drunk and wasted his life
he did not value the privileges he had been given by his foster parents even though he was adopted
he was bitter and set on learning the wrong things and the bad way
he did all kinds of evil things and one day he murdered his friend in anger to get revenge!
his good friend had betrayed him and taken the girl he loved
he ran back home and his foster parents found out what he had done
but his foster parents loved him also, now they wanted to show him that he was wrong all along
so they asked their obedient son to bear the guilt
a life for a life
bearing the guilt means going to death
the only son loved his parents very much and being close to them, he also understood why they adopted the other son, his foster brother
they were compassionate people who took pity on the adopted son because he was left all alone when his parents died in an accident
in obedience and fulfilling his parents' expectations, he agreed to take the blame and bear the guilt, he was prepared to face death, something he never came close to deserving
if his parents said so, he would do it
he died for his foster brother
its impossible to explain how foreign true love is. its something out of this world
God's love is like this. Jesus died for our sins. why? what evil has He done?

anyday could be the last day, our last moment
the people we met and saw, whether friends or strangers
the cute baby, the people you saw on the street just now
you may only meet them once, and nevermore
life is unpredictable and passes away like a vapor
today is a gift: that's why its called the present
while things can still be changed, while your own eternal destiny still can be decided
seek the Truth today!!!